If wishes were horses ...

I wish things were different. Why can't he turn towards this marriage?
I am so sad. It is such a loss. It's the death of a union. A third entity is created when two people come together in marriage. An entity more powerful and greater than the sum of its parts. How can someone just commit suicide on that creation? How can he not see that this is the wrong choice? It's never the right choice to walk away from a marriage, especially one where there are children involved.
If wishes were horses beggars would ride, the saying goes; a horse, a horse my kingdom for a horse.
I once asked my husband, in the early days of our courtship, thinking of the saying "where angels fear to tread", where he though angles feared to tread. I don't remember what he answered, but I do remember thinking that the answer was very convoluted and confusing.
As for me, I believe that angels fear to tread against the will of the Almighty.
I feel like all the signs were there from the beginning. That he has not turing towards God, that he would wrap himself in idle imaginings. I didn't take these elements of our relationship seriously. I thought, naively, that like me, he would do whatever it took to make this union work.
I was wrong.
And yet here I am. Still mulling over the ruins of my marriage and wondering how it can be saved. Wondering if there is anything more I could have done or can do still to save it. I am like a doctor pumping the heart of a person whose heart has stopped beating. Mechanically attempting to keep life in that body, when the spirit has already left. That is what my marriage was like. And now, now I have stepped back from the operating table and am watching the body. I am watching to see if the spirit will return to the body and the body will take a breath again once more. I have stepped back and am watching, waiting for the Will of God to be made known. The spirit of a marriage requires both parties to be committed.
It is so maddening to have to just sit idly by and watch this marriage's spirit depart it's body. I have a hard time reconciling that fact within myself that there is nothing more I can do.
And then I pray for him to be forgiven. Baha'u'llah tells us that whoever is responsible for the divorce will experience deep remorse and calamity. I feel sorry for my husband for what he is bringing upon himself. I love him, and I love our marriage, but I can't do it alone.
i can fly, but I want his wings. We could soar so high together, he and I. I think that he doesn't believe in his own potential, nobility and greatness. He is sold on some cheap illusion of who he is. His ego has sold him on the fact that he is only worth what someone thinks of him. And so he is a prisoner.
But, he like so many other people in the world, is simply in need of education.
This comes to the point of how to Teach people the Faith. Perhaps, in the future, this will all work out to his favour and he will be able, due to these tests, to turn towards God?