CODA

I just got back from my first AA meeting. I really liked it. And then we went for pizza with a friend of my friend's that was there and she told us about addiction and co-dependency addiction. Wow. I realize that I am an addict to that type of unhealthy relationship. I stopped drinking and married into a co-dependent relationships. When she was telling us about the patterns of co-dependent relationships, it was like she was describing our marriage, my parents marriage, other relationships I've had. I feel so blessed to have been given this insight. I want to go back to more meetings, this feels good. I feel like I can do this.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to have a normal, healthy romantic relationship. I probably will, but it will take a lot of thoughtfulness and care to make sure I don't get over-involved with it. One thing can be for sure, that it must grow slowly.
It's amazing how helpful this year has been. I didn't even know I was co-dependent and had trouble with relationships. Now, having been forced to be alone for a year I am realizing all the bounties and healing which has been showered upon me. Praised be God. I still want to go to some CoDa meetings, I think I would benefit from them. This is great. I am excited with this new learning.